I will forever miss you and love you- My Hero!

Well- I can officially say that my life is in ruins right now! my hero- the person who can get me out of every little thing, the person who brought me back to truth and light, my true savior, the best women I've ever know, is gone from the earth forever until the resurrection. Can I please be selfish for a minute and say that I still need her here? Can I please say that her mission on earth is not yet done and over with? I dont care right now how bad she's needed on the other side- what about here? So many people here still need her love, support, her amazing hugs and listening abilities. I could tell that women things I myself didn't know or couldnt tell anyone else! What a way to start out a break. I can't breathe, I can't stop crying, and when I do, I start again. I'm so not looking forward to church tomorrow, because I know people are going to say things, and say the whole "im sorry- I know you guys were close and that she really did love you with all her heart." yes, thank you, I know she did. We were the bestest of friends you could truely be. she was my inspiration, my testimony, my lighthouse, and now thats gone. I'm sooo staying in nursery to hide from all the grown women, because I know that if I go to RS, I'll end up crying my eyes bloody, and have to leave from embarrassment. Sister Glem--- I love you soooo very much my darling, and I shall miss you! although I can't wait for the day when I can see you again and get one of our monsterous bear hugs!

As it comes to an end

As the semester comes to an end, I don't feel the way I thought I would. I feel very sad. Don't get me wrong, I so wanna come home and spend christmas with my family, but I've fallen in love with Rexburg and its people. I'm really sad that some of my closest friends are leaving and I will not see them next semester and there will be no more fun times. Sure, we'll write and such, but will I ever see them again? Maybe if I stay for Spring semester, or maybe they'll be in a class of mine next fall... I'm surely going to miss the wonderful girls and guys that I've met this semester. They've really influenced my life and have made a change for the better in me. And so to the good times; I shall never forget! To the good people; I love you and stay in touch! And to Rexburg.... please try and warm up a bit and SEE U LATER ALLIGATOR! I'm going home to WASHINGTON!!!!!!! WAHOOO!!!!!

5 more days!

Its totally weird, I love it here in Idaho, the independance, the people, the atmosphere, but I can't see myself celebrating christmas anywhere else than at home with my family in my house. I love the atmophere of my house back in Washington around christmas; it smells like sugar cookies, gingerbread, mommy's popcorn stuff, cinamon, and theres constantly christmas music going with singing and dancing. I love christmas with a passion! I love what it brings and how different people act. I wish christmas was all year round! I can't wait to go home and see everyone, but I just wanna be home for the holiday season! I wanna go see the lights with my family, singing and laughing and baking. GAH! 5 more days! Can she make it!?

FINALLY CLEAN!

So it took me about 4 hours to white glove my room, and another 7 to white glove my section of the kitchen. Thank heavens for Jay, he's such a beast! He helped me do the whole kitchen. What a guy! lol- then we took a good 3 hour break to watch ghost adventures and have back massages. Then it was back to work. Its amazing, this place looks better than when we moved in, and thats saying something, because it looked like garbage when we moved in.

Thou shalt not kill; but is it ok to beat?

GAH! I just have to keep reminding myself that its only a week and half left... just one week and half... 10 days technically... SOO MANY FRUSTRATING THINGS!!! Its not fair at all. You know when you let power go to your head and you pretend to basically be God, that you're better than everyone and that its your responsibility to a.)enforce the rules too much and far, b.) tattle tale all the time on people for things they didn't even do, c.)worry about other's souls before your own. I hate hypocrits; especially when you are on the boarder line of doing something, yet they call it "breaking the rules" and then they go and do the same thing or worse things and dont even think twice of it. Lets say, oh I don't know, you're on a date, and you're like me, a short person, so you have your legs up on the couch sitting on them while leaning on a guy (not laying! remember, you're totally sitting) and someone comes in yelling the 4 on the floor rule and that you're breaking honor code and that you'll have to go talk to the bishop, yet everytime they have their bf or fiance over, they never do the 4 on the floor rule. Or if they turn off the power to the apartment, so now you definitely are breaking honor code by being in the dark? Or telling you that due to a misunderstanding with a borrowing situation, that you are going to have to go to honor code classes for theft, and possibly be kicked outta school? People, I guess in a way thanks for caring that I keep my soul clean, but I think I can take care of myself without your help! Ive been doing a pretty darn good job of it for the last 18 1/2 years of my life. If I want or need your help with "saving my soul from damnation" I'll ask for it! Until then, i beg you, PLEASE stop!

You see my frustration now? Just keep swimming, 10 more days then the nightmare goes away! And I get to come home again for a few weeks! I am having a blast though with Jay, cody, liz, Christian, Heidi and Morgan! You gotta love them!

Last day of Cheer

Ah, its been an amazing season! Im soooo glad that I did cheer this semester! I've met sooo many good people and now have many new friends whom are just sooo amazing! I can't really imagine my life without these people in it! Because I had such a fun experience this semester, I'm soo looking forward to next semester- so yes, I am going out for the cheer team again for the winter 2011 semester! It should be loads of fun! I'm just really sad that its all over now!

Really? What is this!?

ok- so on tuesday I was sitting in my American foundations class and I noticed that I had a very itchy rash starting on my hands. By the end of class it had moved up my entire arm. I really thought nothing of it, but decided that that night I would go to the store and buy itch cream and hopefully it would go away. By 7pm it had not only gone from my arms, but to my abdomin, legs, lower back, and my neck. I applied the cream everywhere and hug with Marissa, Jay and my roommates for the rest of the night. Wednesday morning I wake up in SOO much pain I start to cry! I got up and my face looked as though it was blown up 10x's its normal size; my eyes were so swollen I could barely open them. I called Marissa who took me to the campus clinic. There they assessed me and told me I was having an allergic reaction to something. I ran through everything I had touched, eaten and used. Nothing was different it seemed; yesterday was just a normal day! Jay came to the clinic as I was waiting for drugs, but I was too embarrassed to look at him, so he said that if I needed anything to call him (he's so sweet! you gotta love him!) So I went home and by 3pm it had gotten worse, so Marissa dragged me back to the clinic, where they put in an IV (the worst part of the whole treatment mind you!), and in 45 min I was looking better than before. It was getting better yesterday, and now its friday and my face is almost back to normal- theres no more swelling, no more itching, just redness on my face (which is fine with me! Rather have that then swollen everything!) But now the bumps and rash are starting again on my hands. I haven't touched anything that I did that day, and I've washed and scrubbed everything I own, so this is a complete mystery! We thought it might be a new allergy to peanut butter, or a lotion that I have, or even Sunny-D... but I have stayed away from all those things... So now I'm waiting and hoping that this goes away and stays away, at least until christmas break where I can go and get allergy tested for something that can explain this bizzar happening!


Other than that- life's been great! Last thing for cheer is tomorrow, then the Civil War game with my cheer people (GO DUCKS!) and then Jay and I are going to be hanging, as usual! Life here at BYUI is amazing!