Home for the holidays- Celebrate me home!

Ok- so, even though my break has not turned out exactly how I wanted it to, its still been fun and good to me! Ive gotten to see my family- all of them! I had a marvolous christmas where I got a red toaster and mixer for my college dorm, got a new boyfriend (Jay Hamann) Ive gotten to spend quality time with most of my friends and the others we're working out days. So overall I'd say this break has been amazing! Sure, I had a funeral to go to, I had to go to the depths of hell (aka Max's house) to get a christmas present, but I made the best of them! I've also gotten to hangout with Jay a lot, went to menchies and panda with Alix and Emma, went to Ikea with Jessi, and have gotten to play in nursery with some of the cutest kids on the planet! Although I am ready to go back to my life out at BYU-I. I miss it soo much out there! I miss the people, the atmosphere, not the snow so much, but still. I miss my apartment and the independance I had out there! oh well, c'est la vie!

"Life is wonderful"

Ok- so this vacation started out suckish... and I was in the fullest intention to just moap around the whole time... but thats not what Sister Glem would have wanted, and I just know she'd find some way to smack me if I did. So I began thinking, "What would she do if it weren't her, but another person?" and "what can I do to help others who are feeling just as alone inside as me?" So today was the funeral, and I had every intention to make it as beautiful and grand as she was. A few of the talks got me crying, especially the ones that told her children that She loved them. I'm considered to be one of her "daughters" as her actual family says, so I took it to mean me too. Then, Me and a few choice YW (Mikyla, Paige Child and Carnahan, Brooke, Sariah, Lindsey, Mckenzie, and Breegan) all got up and sang "Tell me Why" which is her favorite song from Camp which she taught us her last year there. It was truely beautiful and had many in the audience crying. Then, at the end, as the cascett passed all of us who were sitting on the end row by the door, we all balling, Brother Glem passed and said, "see? she wants you girls to be the last to see her leave because she loves you the most." Not helping with the crying, just making it worse. Then, I went to the family grave site memorial, again, because I'm considered family and my dad was conducting. We then went back to the family luncheon. It was truely a great day, and I know for a fact that Sister Glem was there, crying from gladness, crying because she felt touched and knew how loved she was. At the funeral there were about 900 people there, and many more came to the viewing. Me and several other YW got a tad upset at the viewing; it just wasn't Sister Glem. The light was gone, which just goes to show that the body doesn't make up the person who you hold special, but the spirit does. It was just a body, laying there cold. Although we thought she should have been smiling! She always had a smile on her face, even when she was sad, for she knew better things were to come. She will surely be missed on this earth; so Jesus, you better come quickly! because I dont know how long I can live without my Mommy Peggy Glem here with me!

"I really think that dear God above, Created you just for me to love. He picked you out from all the rest, because He knew that I'd love you the best!" ~ Tell me Why

I will forever miss you and love you- My Hero!

Well- I can officially say that my life is in ruins right now! my hero- the person who can get me out of every little thing, the person who brought me back to truth and light, my true savior, the best women I've ever know, is gone from the earth forever until the resurrection. Can I please be selfish for a minute and say that I still need her here? Can I please say that her mission on earth is not yet done and over with? I dont care right now how bad she's needed on the other side- what about here? So many people here still need her love, support, her amazing hugs and listening abilities. I could tell that women things I myself didn't know or couldnt tell anyone else! What a way to start out a break. I can't breathe, I can't stop crying, and when I do, I start again. I'm so not looking forward to church tomorrow, because I know people are going to say things, and say the whole "im sorry- I know you guys were close and that she really did love you with all her heart." yes, thank you, I know she did. We were the bestest of friends you could truely be. she was my inspiration, my testimony, my lighthouse, and now thats gone. I'm sooo staying in nursery to hide from all the grown women, because I know that if I go to RS, I'll end up crying my eyes bloody, and have to leave from embarrassment. Sister Glem--- I love you soooo very much my darling, and I shall miss you! although I can't wait for the day when I can see you again and get one of our monsterous bear hugs!

As it comes to an end

As the semester comes to an end, I don't feel the way I thought I would. I feel very sad. Don't get me wrong, I so wanna come home and spend christmas with my family, but I've fallen in love with Rexburg and its people. I'm really sad that some of my closest friends are leaving and I will not see them next semester and there will be no more fun times. Sure, we'll write and such, but will I ever see them again? Maybe if I stay for Spring semester, or maybe they'll be in a class of mine next fall... I'm surely going to miss the wonderful girls and guys that I've met this semester. They've really influenced my life and have made a change for the better in me. And so to the good times; I shall never forget! To the good people; I love you and stay in touch! And to Rexburg.... please try and warm up a bit and SEE U LATER ALLIGATOR! I'm going home to WASHINGTON!!!!!!! WAHOOO!!!!!

5 more days!

Its totally weird, I love it here in Idaho, the independance, the people, the atmosphere, but I can't see myself celebrating christmas anywhere else than at home with my family in my house. I love the atmophere of my house back in Washington around christmas; it smells like sugar cookies, gingerbread, mommy's popcorn stuff, cinamon, and theres constantly christmas music going with singing and dancing. I love christmas with a passion! I love what it brings and how different people act. I wish christmas was all year round! I can't wait to go home and see everyone, but I just wanna be home for the holiday season! I wanna go see the lights with my family, singing and laughing and baking. GAH! 5 more days! Can she make it!?

FINALLY CLEAN!

So it took me about 4 hours to white glove my room, and another 7 to white glove my section of the kitchen. Thank heavens for Jay, he's such a beast! He helped me do the whole kitchen. What a guy! lol- then we took a good 3 hour break to watch ghost adventures and have back massages. Then it was back to work. Its amazing, this place looks better than when we moved in, and thats saying something, because it looked like garbage when we moved in.

Thou shalt not kill; but is it ok to beat?

GAH! I just have to keep reminding myself that its only a week and half left... just one week and half... 10 days technically... SOO MANY FRUSTRATING THINGS!!! Its not fair at all. You know when you let power go to your head and you pretend to basically be God, that you're better than everyone and that its your responsibility to a.)enforce the rules too much and far, b.) tattle tale all the time on people for things they didn't even do, c.)worry about other's souls before your own. I hate hypocrits; especially when you are on the boarder line of doing something, yet they call it "breaking the rules" and then they go and do the same thing or worse things and dont even think twice of it. Lets say, oh I don't know, you're on a date, and you're like me, a short person, so you have your legs up on the couch sitting on them while leaning on a guy (not laying! remember, you're totally sitting) and someone comes in yelling the 4 on the floor rule and that you're breaking honor code and that you'll have to go talk to the bishop, yet everytime they have their bf or fiance over, they never do the 4 on the floor rule. Or if they turn off the power to the apartment, so now you definitely are breaking honor code by being in the dark? Or telling you that due to a misunderstanding with a borrowing situation, that you are going to have to go to honor code classes for theft, and possibly be kicked outta school? People, I guess in a way thanks for caring that I keep my soul clean, but I think I can take care of myself without your help! Ive been doing a pretty darn good job of it for the last 18 1/2 years of my life. If I want or need your help with "saving my soul from damnation" I'll ask for it! Until then, i beg you, PLEASE stop!

You see my frustration now? Just keep swimming, 10 more days then the nightmare goes away! And I get to come home again for a few weeks! I am having a blast though with Jay, cody, liz, Christian, Heidi and Morgan! You gotta love them!